Hey everyone,, So this is the first time posting on a forum. I'm now 21yo and only now realising the true re-percussion of having contracted it.Since diagnosed it never really dawned on me what impact it would have on my life, being so young I was basically just concentrating on my career and it wasn't really an issue to me.Yesterday, my girlfriend received test results from her gyno appointment. We've been dating for 5 months, probably have sex about 3 times a week on average. I believe her when she says she didn't know she had it, else why come clean now. She apparently requested a full battery of tests, to try and fully ease my mind as we discussed my worries in the past and she was confident she didn't have anything. Some think of people like Peckham as immoral, assuming only people who sleep around get genital herpes.The stigma of the virus, which exists at the heart of this faulty mindset, is usually worse than the symptoms themselves, as it affects dating, social life and psychological health.
The more female interaction I have, the more I realise what "im missing out on". Everyone around me has noticed I'm growing into a different person. I met a girl a couple weeks ago that works closely with my brother, she's amazing and beautiful.Am already getting signs that I've been progressing too "slowly" she's been throwing herself at me and its the most depressing/frustrating experience I think I've ever had having to find excuses why "oh, I need to go"its actually crippling.Love to hear your thoughts, pretty much losing my mind.He is someone I've always felt loved me enough to protect me and keep me safe. The thing I am struggling so deeply with is that I want to have a partner, a totally exclusive partner, not someone who is married and "allowed" to be with another woman.It has never been my desire to be in a relationship like this.